a day -just one- at the hospital

I feel drained.

First, Poppy’s CT scan went extremely well. She didn’t make a peep or move an inch. I have been worried about it for weeks thinking she would have to be sedated and held down and strapped to the table with some teensy little straight-jacket. Nope. She was sleepy and stayed still as can be while my mother and I stood next to the machine in our AWESOME lead suits. My suit was zebra print and my mom’s was black sparkles. It was almost like they were custom-made for us.


Then, after a near diaper-disaster and a few cups of coffee we were off to visit the neurosurgeon.

Her CT scan looked good and we got the go-ahead for surgery. Unfortunately, it is going to be sooner than I had anticipated. Most likely July 9th or 11th. Its so soon, too soon. I need to get her in with the ENT specialist and the opthamologist before her surgery.

After leaving the neurosurgeon’s office we went down to get our (myself, my mom, and poppy) blood drawn and typed to see if we match. Poppy will need additional blood during/after her surgery and the closer the match, the better. I was told they would just give her a little “stick” to get enough blood. I was told wrong. After pleading with the phlebotomist, accosting the nurse for leaving a sizeable fingernail imprint on Poppy’s arm, and contemplating assaulting them both… we hadn’t even drawn any blood yet. They couldn’t find a vein and had to call a nurse from the I.V. team down.

She found a vein in Poppy’s foot and went for it. She was quick, which I appreciate, but her swiftness didn’t negate the screams of pain that bellowed from my babe. I wanted to throw up.


How will I ever hand her over for cranial surgery?!

One day at a time. Today was emotionally exhausting, but physically bearable. We made it past another big, ugly monster of a day. Poppy seems to have forgiven me. The best part : She got some new shades from Dr. Wehby:)


3 responses to “a day -just one- at the hospital”

  1. Patricia Avatar

    Oh my….. Made me cry mama! You are a strong mama, whether you know it or not my sweet Noelle. God is and will continue to be with you through all of this and will continue to renew your strength. We are praying constantly for you all. Give my sweet Poppy girl a kiss & hug.

    “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power. Though youths grow weary and tired, and vigorous young men stumble badly, yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will run and not become weary.” Isaiah 40:28-31Nasv


  2. Joi Scott Avatar
    Joi Scott

    I love the new shades! Can we see if we are a blood match? If so, where? I would love to donate blood to my little Poppy girl!


  3. Camille Erickson Avatar
    Camille Erickson

    Noelle – I am Camille, the lady with the garage sale near your home on River Road. Thank you for letting me share your journey with you. It sounds like you have terrific support here on your blog. I give you mine as well…along with my thoughts and prayers for strength and peace. It was wonderful to meet you. I know you must be very special or you wouldn’t have been blessed with Poppy. I look forward to seeing you and the rest of your family some day. Much love your way.


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